I have to make 2 confessions to myself, for clarification. It’s soothing to blog about these things.
I find overweight men more attractive than skinny ones: (I don’t mean sturdy, I mean plain super fat). It must be the Spanish catholic past dictating something here. It does so in confabulation with my still childishly renegade reach on life. As if they could shield me. As if they were making a statement by not taking care of themselves…?
Of course, this statement is to be used ceteris paribus: it’s just a physiognomy factor, to be isolated form intellectual, moral or ethic as well as personality appreciations of men.
Secondly, I start to develop a sense of self-appreciation I had never before experienced. Again, I think a youngest-of-eight and subservient adolescence had imprinted a feeling of lessness on me. It has taken me 35 years to overcome (and I cannot even keep track of how many hours of chaise-longue). But hey! it seems, in the end, it may have all paid off ;-)
Ahhh… there we go! I had to get this out. In case I sometime hit the play-back button and re-read my posts, nobody except myself should care for this entry – but maybe the act of blogging just makes us all a little bit more vane, a little bit (more) exhibitionist and also, on the beholders side, a lot more voyeuristic.
Tags: anatomy, hedonism, intimacy, men, physical, romance, sexy, voyeur, weight
March 18, 2009 at 11:48 pm
I’m with you on that one, I love fat men. My current man is about 260 and 6′1, so noticeably fat, although I’d definitely date bigger. I love the contrast in size between us… and I’m Catholic too (Italian); maybe there’s some strange connection?
And as far as self-appreciation… it’s really the only kind I’ve know of until this relationship. It’s a gift to yourself which I hope you cultivate. It’s hard but worth it… you can do it. (Not that I’m perfect on it either).